HEALING A MOTHERS BETRAYAL
When it comes to healing modalities, I consider myself a connoisseur. I rank Alchemical Hypnotherapy at the top of the list.
I have worked with numerous systems over the years, mostly in an effort to heal a deep emotional wound I received in 1976 when I was 19 years old. At that time, my 38 year old mother had me committed to a mental hospital when I had drug-induced mystical experiences of divine love. While I was locked up, she began a two-year relationship with my 20 year-old boyfriend.
This betrayal was compounded by the fact that I always deeply loved and admired my mother. It would have been easier to deal with the emotional trauma, if I simply hated her. But I didn't. Part of me hated her for hurting me, but a deeper part loved her too.
My difficulty in resolving this situation over the years came from my mother's unwillingness to ever say she was sorry. Because of my love for her, I longed to feel close, but my anger was so deep that whenever I approached her seeking resolution, she pushed me away. I suppose my feelings made her feel guilty. But, whatever the reason I was never able to get the apology that I needed or really feel the love that I longed for.
My mother died of cancer in 1998. And my inner work around the pain began to focus on simply letting go so that I could stop hurting inside.
When I called David Quigley for an Alchemical Hypnotherapy telephone session in July of 2008, my intended goal for the session was to discover the inner obstacles that were stopping me from completing a book that I've been writing for two years, and getting that book into the world.
I was surprised when the first issue that rose to the surface was this one with my mother. I was even more deeply surprised when David held the space for me to really express my anger toward my mother on the inner planes. He helped me call her soul forward and supported me in really letting her know my feelings, not just through the words but with my whole body.
David held the space for me to really feel those feelings and express them at a depth that I had never allowed myself to experience before. And he helped me make my mother stay around and hear these feelings in a way that I had never managed to accomplish. My entire life, my mother always ran from the feelings I carried about her. I guess they caused her too much pain, so she simply wouldn't let me share them with her.
During my session with David, my mother's soul actually experienced these feelings for the first time. For the first time, she actually felt the depth of the pain that her actions caused me. And for the first time, I heard her actually say that she was sorry. Even as I write this, my eyes are overflowing with tears of gratitude for the depth of that inner experience.
It was deeply moving to hear the words that I had spent over 30 years longing to hear. This was not something that happened in my imagination. It was an authentic experience, that I both heard and felt deeply in my heart.
After my mother's words of apology, I experienced the Joy of forgiving her. Then, I felt her soul merge with mine in a profoundly deep dance of love, a love that since her death I had pretty much given up on. This experience released a heaviness that had been laying on my heart for over 30 years. In the weeks since, my whole body has felt lighter and I can now express myself in the world with even greater ease.
David Quigley led me through this experience with astute and insightful grace. I'm amazed at the depth this work can reach by phone!
I am extremely grateful for this work. On a scale from 1 to 10, I give Alchemical Hypnotherapy 100 glowing, dancing, twinkling stars.
Shaeri Richards
Sedona, AZ
I have worked with numerous systems over the years, mostly in an effort to heal a deep emotional wound I received in 1976 when I was 19 years old. At that time, my 38 year old mother had me committed to a mental hospital when I had drug-induced mystical experiences of divine love. While I was locked up, she began a two-year relationship with my 20 year-old boyfriend.
This betrayal was compounded by the fact that I always deeply loved and admired my mother. It would have been easier to deal with the emotional trauma, if I simply hated her. But I didn't. Part of me hated her for hurting me, but a deeper part loved her too.
My difficulty in resolving this situation over the years came from my mother's unwillingness to ever say she was sorry. Because of my love for her, I longed to feel close, but my anger was so deep that whenever I approached her seeking resolution, she pushed me away. I suppose my feelings made her feel guilty. But, whatever the reason I was never able to get the apology that I needed or really feel the love that I longed for.
My mother died of cancer in 1998. And my inner work around the pain began to focus on simply letting go so that I could stop hurting inside.
When I called David Quigley for an Alchemical Hypnotherapy telephone session in July of 2008, my intended goal for the session was to discover the inner obstacles that were stopping me from completing a book that I've been writing for two years, and getting that book into the world.
I was surprised when the first issue that rose to the surface was this one with my mother. I was even more deeply surprised when David held the space for me to really express my anger toward my mother on the inner planes. He helped me call her soul forward and supported me in really letting her know my feelings, not just through the words but with my whole body.
David held the space for me to really feel those feelings and express them at a depth that I had never allowed myself to experience before. And he helped me make my mother stay around and hear these feelings in a way that I had never managed to accomplish. My entire life, my mother always ran from the feelings I carried about her. I guess they caused her too much pain, so she simply wouldn't let me share them with her.
During my session with David, my mother's soul actually experienced these feelings for the first time. For the first time, she actually felt the depth of the pain that her actions caused me. And for the first time, I heard her actually say that she was sorry. Even as I write this, my eyes are overflowing with tears of gratitude for the depth of that inner experience.
It was deeply moving to hear the words that I had spent over 30 years longing to hear. This was not something that happened in my imagination. It was an authentic experience, that I both heard and felt deeply in my heart.
After my mother's words of apology, I experienced the Joy of forgiving her. Then, I felt her soul merge with mine in a profoundly deep dance of love, a love that since her death I had pretty much given up on. This experience released a heaviness that had been laying on my heart for over 30 years. In the weeks since, my whole body has felt lighter and I can now express myself in the world with even greater ease.
David Quigley led me through this experience with astute and insightful grace. I'm amazed at the depth this work can reach by phone!
I am extremely grateful for this work. On a scale from 1 to 10, I give Alchemical Hypnotherapy 100 glowing, dancing, twinkling stars.
Shaeri Richards
Sedona, AZ
